It is hard to let go in little bits and realize that our rules and regulations need to be dialed back a bit as they are not reasonable or needed the way they once were. It is hard not to helicopter around him because that is what we know but it is slowly, slowly changing. Thanks goodness it is a slow process. My mom was extremely controlling and did not want me to grow up. She hung on to that control for as long as she could. I do not want to be like that, I want Matthew to know there are important rules and regulations as a member of our family without stifling whomever he eventually becomes. I want Matthew to grow and shine and be who he wants to be within reason. However that is scary for me. Scary to think I no longer really control all aspects of his life and from here on out I will slowly continue to lose my grip on every aspect of his life. But it is good and healthy and HARD.
I read somewhere how we need to start letting go of our child from the moment they are born. I am getting that idea more and more with each passing day. In letting go, I am letting him grow, I am letting him become his own person. It is hard.
He will always be my little peanut to me but shhh DO NOT TELL HIM I SAID THAT!